So..

I've been encouraged to start blogging about my derby experience. Since I'm now on the team at San Diego Roller Derby, I'm thinking about writing about what it's like. I'm brain dead right now, so none of this is making sense, but maybe it will at some point.

Weird

How does one go from imagining being with someone for the rest of their life, then two months later, wanting nothing to do with that person?

That is where I am at. I truly want nothing to do with him. I have learned so much about him over this period of separation, that I don't imagine ever wanting to be with him, again.

I have also come to a better understanding of God, and as much as I know He hates divorce, I also can't believe He would want me to be in the situation I am in. Maybe it's wishful thinking, but I am really starting to believe that.

I have so much going on in my head..no surprise given my personality, but it's even starting to annoy me, and I've lived with myself for 38 years. I should be used to all of this thinking stuff by now.

Such is life, I suppose.